Just 'Cause I'm Confused

 
I am a person standing in front of this street sign.

Currently Listening to: Crossroads - Bone Thugs n Harmony (just so I can feel the moment. HAHA)
 
CONFUSION. That's what the past few days have been filled with. Davao or Manila? This job or that job? HR position or any job as long as it can give me enough cash for shopping? Be a freelance writer for the meantime or just continue job hunting? Decisions, decisions. So much choices to make yet so little time and so little clues on what the right decisions are. I don't know if all fresh graduates go through this phase but I'm definitely trapped in it!! I seriously don't know what to do with my life!! HAHA. And that's something new to someone who's used to a busy schedule and a daily routine. My current occupation as a couch potato has been hard for me. Although there are upsides of being a bum, such as a stress-free working environment, unlimited access to food and drinks, comfortable workstation and the like, it gets a bit depressing at times, especially when you feel like a worthless...BUM.

 For now, I've applied online to all my dream employers. Northgate Arinso, San Miguel, IBM, etc. So far, P&G would have to be my number one deam job. I heard they've great benefits and compensation. Plus Ms. Delia (our department chair-slash-psyc mentor-slash thesis adviser), messaged me the other day, telling me the HR Manager of P&G is her former student and prefers USC graduates. I guess that's an advantage for me. But thinking about the competition against top Manila schools such as ADMU, DLSU, UP, it makes me worried if I'll actually land the job. Oh well, I'll just have to KEEP THE FAITH and work extra hard!! Nasa Diyos ang awa, nasa tao ang gawa! Yeah!

On another note, when I saw a video on Steve Jobs' speech at the graduation ceremony of Stanford University, the two words that came out of his mouth keep haunting me every time I click on a link that jobstreet sends me. He said:

"NEVER SETTLE".

...may it be in work or love. He states that you should always continue searching for what you truly love because that's the only way to find satisfaction. Never settle. Never settle. Two words that keep bugging me every now and then. How the hell will I know if this is what I truly love if I keep telling myself that there's something greater than this? Something that's really meant for me and will give me more satisfaction? Do you get my point?

This is the part where I realize why I've been so confused for the past few days. Eurekaaaaa! FRIGHT- that's the reason why. Now that I'm finally done with school and a fresh start in starting a career is right in front of me, I'm scared that I might make the wrong choice. What if I put so much effort in applying for a job and realize later on that it's not my calling? What if I end up being in a job that doesn't make me happy? Or worse, what if one of my bosses is a Dirty Old Man and will attempt to sexually harass me? (Okay, OA.) SO MANY QUESTIONS BUT THE ANSWERS ARE SO FEW, all I really know is I love youuuuuuuu  by Side A. hahaha. Corny. Courage, courage, courage. That's the only way to get out of here and MORE POSITIVE THOUGHTS! And to always remember THE SECRET- "The universe will conspire to make it happen if it's really meant for me".

Anyway, I've said so much already and I haven't even started on another entry that I wanna write. I guess I have to end here!!

KThnxBye.

GY :)