If only he knew the kind of men I was with before him, he'll know why I reacted that way.
If only he knew how much it hurts to have him sleep soundly after what happened.
If only he knew how deep it pierces my heart to have him hear that he considers everything I said as pure nonsense.
If only he knew the walls I've built to keep people away from me just to gain his trust.
If only he knew how unloved I feel right now.
If only.